I haven’t really been doing what I said I would have I? Nope, no writing, no time, no idea why! I have been trying really hard to get into a real ‘get some fire into your belly’ book a friend loaned me by Christine Caine. She was one of the first international speakers I ever heard and I am in awe of her pocket rocket attitude, love for Jesus and the way she gets you all fired up to get on with it in simple terms. I need some fire in MY belly. We have just done a mini renovation, then the kids have done a term at school which went super fast in flurry of sporting events and I am now the co mother of two Thai students for 9 weeks, (6 to go!) Its busy but I still feel I’m mulling around in no mans land. We all get to hang out here at some stage sometimes more than others depending on our situation and I don’t like it one bit. I saw the ocean at the weekend its kind of one of those things that if I’m not in the frame of mind it sends me into a spin. I love the ocean, I miss the ocean, I can’t describe how it makes me feel but when I look at it I feel sadness and want to be nearer to it, I want to be able to walk on the sand and dip my feet in. I’ve been posting encouraging quotes and words on resting in God, in digging deeper into his word and praying hard for direction. I am, believe it or not practising what I preach but still not getting anything, still feeling a little wahhhh!
When we are hungry he will feed us, we need to go to the one that supplies our daily needs. We need to be quiet and wait for our food. In his timing he will feed us exactly what we need to nourish us at that particular time – (I wrote this down at the NLC Regional day in Christchurch)
16 This is what the Lord says— he who made a way through the sea,a path through the mighty waters, 17 who drew out the chariots and horses, the army and reinforcements together, and they lay there, never to rise again, extinguished, snuffed out like a wick: 18 “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. 19 See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.20 The wild animals honor me, the jackals and the owls, because I provide water in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland,to give drink to my people, my chosen, 21 the people I formed for myself that they may proclaim my praise.
There! That told me! I believe in his plan, I believe he has a purpose for me, I trust in him BUT I’m impatient! I bet you are too! We all are! I want to do something amazing, we all do, we all want to work in our gifting, we all want to fulfil what God wanted us to be. To do all that though, there must be a time of preparation, a time of teaching, a time to learn and get ready. A time in the middle where we feel a little or a lot lost, a time when we are not sure which path to take, a time when we can’t even see a blinking path but be assured that his plans far outweigh our impatience to achieve them, that visions can sit for years in preparation, in storage for the right time to be released.
I want to encourage you if you are feeling a little bit meh too that its a season, look for the positive in it, the time to be quiet, the time to listen, the time to prepare because when God says its time, you’ll need to be ready for anything and everything.
I am hoping that these school holidays bring with them the time I need to get that fire lit again, to get started on whats needed of me and to get running the race God has set before me. Its training, teaching and preparation thats all. Easy eh? NO!!
Keep keeping on girls, keep pushing into his word, listening for that quiet voice, we will get there. Jeremiah 29v11