Princess Warrior

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Ever get that feeling like you’ve just fallen off a bike?? I felt like that for the whole month of June!

This picture really spoke to me this morning and transported me back to a sermon Bobbi Houston did at my first Sistas conference two and half years ago about dragon slaying.

I preached in Church just over a month ago – I spent alot of time preparing, praying and making sure I would deliver the message God had dropped into my heart clearly and correctly. I thought I’d done ok, infact I absolutely loved it until I watched myself and then I watched myself again….I fell to pieces, yup it floored me, knocked my confidence, paralysed me and reduced me to tears of not good enough, not spiritually mature enough, huge insecurity levels you know, the usual hello devil tactics!!

Although I knew it was the devil, particularly after my lemons and lemonade post!  I’ve found it really hard to get back up which is unusual for me.  I’ve tried to write but my pen or my own fingers would not move I couldn’t communicate what was in my heart or my head to paper or computer {insert sad face} I felt terrible and then….

A Fight to the Finish

10-12 And that about wraps it up. God is strong, and he wants you strong. So take everything the Master has set out for you, well-made weapons of the best materials. And put them to use so you will be able to stand up to everything the Devil throws your way. This is no afternoon athletic contest that we’ll walk away from and forget about in a couple of hours. This is for keeps, a life-or-death fight to the finish against the Devil and all his angels.  Ephesians 6:10-13 msg

I went to National Conference ‘Alive’ and it was just the fuel I needed in my tank, powerful speakers, amazing messages and everything I needed to believe in myself again to be encouraged and empowered. Thank you Jesus.

On the outside I’ve felt like the girl in the picture on a rocking horse not sure where I’m heading not feeling like I’m heading anywhere, but on the inside my spirit is soaring with love and guidance from God, with his love, with words, with energy, with ideas, with dreams and with visions.

I just need to glance at my spirit shadow to see who I am and start being me again – you know that saying if you fall off a bike the best thing to do is hop back on one again…..

‘there is no reason to fear but everything to prepare’ Bobbi Houston

So with that I ran on my own which I haven’t done for a long time,  I put my headphones on listened to worship and got close with God.  I prayed and asked him to help me out as I was struggling with doing what I love!  In that hour of running I prepared my next sermon for when I speak again (I don’t feel like I want to but I know I will!) I prayed for God to help me put my pen to paper again so I could start delivering my weekly words of encouragement to the lovely girls in my church.

Since that day I have had word after word, image after image and vision after vision!! I no longer feel like the girl on the rocking horse, I feel like the girl in the shadow on a horse with sword ready to fight and ready to fly!

Look out devil this girl just pulled her big girl pants up, picked up her shield and her sword and is ready to go again ….!!!

Biggest Love & see ya soon

L x

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One comment on “Princess Warrior
  1. Kara says:

    Go you!!! So happy to read this. Xx

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